Makakapasok po ba ko sa langit? Tok tok...

Umuulan.

Habang papasok ako ng simbahan, itinitiklop ko ang asul na payong hanggang sa maisapin ko na ang strap nito sa kabilang bahagi.

Mula sa noo, sa bahaging dibdib, sa kaliwang balikat tapos sa kanan, pinakahuli ay nagdaop ang aking mga palad. Katatapos ko lang ng simbolo ng krus. At hindi ko namamalayang nakapasok na nga akong tuluyan sa bandang gitna ng parokya.

Nakapulot ako ng isang ideya mula sa sermon ng pari:

"Hindi mo dapat tinatanong kung ikaw ay makakapasok ng langit. Pinaghihirapan ito."

Ang pagpasok sa sinasabing langit ay bunga ng pagiging desipulo at hindi nang pagiging miyembro ng Simbahan.

Entering the heaven is through descipleship and not membership. We are bound to ask question if we could enter the heaven, along this, we actually insist to enter such. Like any other things, the holy entourage to heaven can only be achieved through hardships. Hardship of renewing life back to God. '',)

Tinanggap ko Siyang muli. At tatanggapin muli, palagi.

The Courage to Teach

I personally made justice to defining this particular entry since my mother is a teacher.

As we learn to know more about ourselves, we might discover techniques that unmask the personhood from which good teaching arrives. This very nature of a person depicts the truest expression of a teacher within. She actually revealed a different twist on real life endeavors of becoming a real teacher. It transformed my vision regarding teaching career from a typical to an extraordinary and a commendable reflection. She is one of the many people in service yet one of the few whose professions are considered noble.

Teachers are said to be the immortal beings. Their presence in the temporal world might vanish but everything is left behind. Their liveliness might fade away but the memories, thoughts, and values more thanknowledge and book can offer made them the undisputed messenger of light towards one's path, a legacy that is worthy to be treasured forever. Teachers therefore have already accepted the wheels of enormous responsibility the moment they embraced their titles. They intertwine these wheels with their personalities and attempt to pave the definitive path we are taking up to now. It is with no doubt that they are the real servants of the society, as well as deserving to be called as parents giving unconditional and incomparable love.

Teacher's bravery to teach has gone through many definitions. They acquire various perspectives from the people who try to limit their understandings about being a teacher. The achiever of good deeds, they, who wear fearless faces to hide confusions and difficulties. The courage to teach is the spirit to teach one's heart unlock in those instances the heart is obliged to hol on more than it is able.

"Good teaching cannot be reduced to technique;

It comes from the identity and integrity of the teacher." - excerpt

Identity and integrity matter most! Teachers possess enough prowess to weave a complex web of conncections realizing the boundary of person's dichotomy -- from public life to personal ones. Aside from this, they are able to chant their concerns in spite of adversities in their lives inspired by their own personal limits. However, as their professions call them, they have the ability to cover up their personal undertakings and vulnerability realizing a firm position. Identity lies in the seam of the mixture of forces that compose up life, and integrity lies in connecting those forces in behaviors that bring the completeness and existence rather than division and death.

I do believe that these sound definitions cannot be obviously identifies to a particular person, even the bearer of these traits herself can never know that she possesses such. This explains a distinct characteristics that binds reality and strangeness. Identity and integrity can only be trapped irregularly out of nowhere.

The heart of a teacher entails a caravan of love bringing the greenest pasture from their students. They are the mentors of life, and speaking to deep, they are one of the real persons behind every success of an individual; they are the keynote contributor from learning the basics to learning life. These describe a teacher within --- teaching beyond technique, giving unmatched dedication.

Morality, On Focus

“Without doubt the greatest injury...was done by basing morals on myth, for sooner or later myth is recognized for what it is, and disappears. Then morality loses the foundation on which it has been built.”

- Herbert Samuel (1870 - 1963)

Moral as it has been defined in the modern dictionaries is concerned with the goodness or badness of character or disposition or with the distinction between right and wrong. It deals primarily with the regulation of conduct, apprehensive with the rules of morality.

The highlighting of the modern source is noteworthy for the natural system of morality since there is a presence of such inevitable change. The far-reaching change of the society on some standards perhaps contributes to the series of alteration in human morality. We have a common knowledge of what is right or what is wrong once we are exposed to our anticipated surrounding. But as we grow, we discover the inapplicability of those particular set of standards instilled to us, due to the influence of other dominant cultures and even our own cultural adjustments. It is expected that we are prepared to cross and to analyze the divergence of mostly accepted customaries to that of the emerging beliefs brought about by social changes.

Morality may in one way or the other reveal a new set of rules for people to deal with, making it contradictory to the preexisting goodness. This is an issue of the present times, where the generation has been embedded on that same set of beliefs where inescapable factors attempt to intervene --- resulting to the modifications that are considered obligatory. As a well thought out cycle, this same instance will happen for the next generation, as we take into consideration that there is no such thing as permanence.

As a student getting hold of knowledge spontaneously, it is imperative that curiosity does not stop at a solitary point. The question remains unanswered on the subject of who lays down apparently the enumerated do’s and don’ts of life alongside the basis/foundation to consider morality.

We visualize morality in a different perspective as it may seem. It is like situational. It is relative. We have come to a decision where we are bound to choose which of the things are good or bad, right or wrong. But it remains that until now, there are structured morals that are not yet busted for it is simply recognized as the real goodness. Although there are morals that are worth preserving, we are the ones who make its tip disparaging.

The course of morality is the dealings of every individual. It is being represented by human natures which includes dichotomy, self jurisdiction, self principles, and ideology or let us say philosophies in life. Person’s dichotomy pictures out our tendency to have two beliefs --- the belief as a mere obligation and the belief as duty calls for it. For an instance, our stand as to whether human evolved from apes. We scientifically declare our position regarding this, since we are inside the academe; and on the other hand, we contradict the previous proposition, when we are inside a place of worship. And as we maintain our distinctiveness, everything follows. In fact, morality as the identification of goodness/badness starts in the realm of the present situation everyone is intended to experience. But merely, ethics and science need to shake hands.

Mores, social rules prescribing behavior of individuals in a society, which, if violated, result in strong disapproval or punishment. Mores are considered to be part of the folkways of a people—that is, the shared behavior common to all.

Along human’s morality, personal choices come into view. This entails the person’s right to choosing what is good for his/her. Having said such, we should take into account the consequences of such decisions and along this process of assessment, this opens an avenue for morality – to distinguish good/ bad; right/wrong.

Tiger Eye Vista

I couldn’t take it for granted.

I’ve been with her almost my entire life.

Wearing those eyes which cause people to shiver.

To chill.

To freeze.

It was in my young years of encouragement when I learned that we couldn’t really measure up people by just looking in their externalities. But, it is with no doubt, it follows that there are some individuals who bear a distinct and capture-prone blessing, as I may consider.

I personally knew these for a very long time. Her oily face seemed to be my usual greetings in the morning but still you can see what should be seen.

She never gives up. Unusual strength to carry out things in their positions, smile in her crafted teeth remains and noted to be pleasurable despite of hard circumstances. 

She’s been there for a while; we’ve been in the same school since elementary and high school too. I just can’t assess the seemingly boundless turn of her life’s page. It was really fast, and dealing with her was at first an obstacle for me… most of the times, before. With difficulty, I could not withstand the changes she was experiencing, her decisions were inevitable. I thought she was piercing herself to thrust a dangerous lair. But then, I found myself still hanging with her and as we grow, I understand what are her upbringings, her weaknesses, her strengths and who she really is. I could comprehend when she is wearing mascara or wearing a true face. I could differentiate the well of her and the worst of her.

Plates are crashing to each other. There has been no any lone stain of cooking rash in the kitchen when she dwells on it. You can only hear the sounds of her friends, Mariah, Usher, Craig, Beyonce and her best friend Regine. You know exactly what I’m talking about.

People thought that she is very vindictive because of her confining sight, but I say, she’s not. It can be noted that once my father got mad of her because of her nearly disparaging attitude. But come to think of it that rules brings about the equivalent torment only if they are broken, and you do not let any factor as face expression to interfere to that basic rule. You can find a better person inside her. Affliction, misery and defeat have no room for her, even at the very sad moments of her life.

A friendly person, she is. Nice thing about her is she knows when she can make me laugh endlessly. It’s in her that she mutually know how to crack jokes. But seriously and taking jokes aside, she can get to defend herself. I mean she is not that opinionated. She just does not want people to step on her. She yields to know what should be her stature in particular.

She knows the ABCs of friendship, that’s why it is undeniable that she already has a collection of friends where her wishbone is curbed. 

“Huwag kang mag-alala, itutuloy ang ligaya,

Huwag mong pipigilan ang iyong pag-asa,

May nagmamasid sa’yo at dahil mahal ka,

Lahat ng nais mo ay itutuloy niya!”

Just as this single after your eye reading, is as just as part of her abstracted life. A good heart, a tough person. One of my strict professors!

It will be a relic that when she walks, it already slays!

The ultimate bearer of tiger-eye vista! My sister.

Words

From those statements, whether bad or good, I cover up to lengthen my patience. With that ample time and extent, I found myself listening to the unheard voices inside of me. There, I got the chance to escape for the soon strike of another batch of bladed words. Then, I got the blanket; wrapping at least my half, with eyes fasten on the screen.

There, I actually got the message to write. It was like words are ready to be in line for their utility, just as you read these lines. I admit sometimes, words are being unfriendly and unapproachable, as I only use them when they are badly needed. It is my decision and my choice to slide my pen on the paper, as the ink secretes what my heart tries to take note. Finally, I got them on circulation again. Words become my friend. They love to be maneuvered. They love to be played. They loved to be given a form of life. Writing becomes my interest. There I remain on their proposed play. I was completely mesmerized by the setting they offered. I freely marinate what I want to say and the blank sheet of paper turns to a colorful masterpiece of heart, soul, misery, story, passion and affair.

I make it not just an art, but also a virtue. As I practice to slowly push the button on the keyboard, I have learned to set my mind free and let the carpet search for the fitted words to use.

Fortunately, words get to travel with me.

Pana - Panahon Nga!

Hindi ko maiwasang gumamit ng aking sariling wika sa mga bagay na may kinalaman sa aking relihiyon. Hindi ko maiwasang sumandal sa tunay na wikang kinagisnan at nasisiguro kong dapat munang pagyamanin bago ang iba.

Ngunit bago ko simulan ang ilang salitang aking isusulat bago dumalas ang tinta ng bolpen. Narito ang isang talinhaga mula sa isa sa mga hinahangaan kong personalidad, gamit ang pluma.

“A life which is not dedicated to a great ideal is useless. It is a pebble lost in the field without forming part of an edifice.” Isang paninindigan ang pagkakaroon ng ganitong pilosopiya. Dakila ang mga talinhagang nakapagbibigay ng tunay na larawan ng totoong buhay. Pili lamang ang mga ito, hindi nangangailangan ng malalim na salita.

Ang buhay na hindi iniaalay sa isang dakilang hangarin ay walang saysay. Tila isang batong limitado lamang sa sarili nitong uri.

Kasabay ng mga nabunot ng dahon na napaglipasan ng anyo, gayundin ang alikabok na siyang tanda ng kalunsuran, ang nakabibinging ingay ng mga tsuper at ang senaryong nag-aagaw liwanag at dilim, nanatili ang pagiging isang aktibong Katoliko. Sa kabila ng iisang daan na aking tinatahak, hindi pa rin napuputol ang aking hangaring kalapin ang mga kuwentong mula sa maliliit na buhay.

Narating ko ang simbahan. Napansin kong gayon pa rin ang pagiging Katoliko. Pana-panahon.

Ang Isip ng Bata!

Marami sa atin ang naghahanap ng iba't ibang paraan para sumaya o lumigaya.
Minsan habang nanonood ako ng TV...nakahanap ako ng isang paraan.
Balikan natin ang ating pagkabata...
Gaano kababaw ang dahilan para humalakhak tayo nang todo?
Nakita mo kung paano sila mag-isip? Ang saya no?

Sabi ng paslit:

"Papa, bili mo kong langit!" (dahil sa komersyal ng Globe)

Sa sinambit niyang 'yun, napangiti ako..

Simple lang 'no, pero astig.

Mapapatunayan mong ang kaligayahan ay nasa paligid lang, kung paano mo sila bibigyang halaga, na sa iyo na! '',)

Huling hirit niya:
"Kuya, bili mo ko 'non!"
Sabi ko: "Wala akong pera eh."

"Kuya, bili mo kong pera."

MR. BEAN

Death of Mr. Bean's Mother

Mr. Bean (crying): The doctor just called up.. My mom is dead. Huhuhuhu...
Friend: Condolences, my friend...

After two minutes, Mr. Bean cries even louder!

Friend: What now, Mr. Bean?
Mr. Bean: My sister just called, her mom died too!

HHhHHhWWAAAaattt??!

Hay...buhay..

Minsan nakabasa ako ng isang blog mula sa isang dalub-guro sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas, doon nakita ko ang ilang mensaheng tunay na depiksyon ng katotohanan.
katotohanan ng mga GRO.
Ngunit habang nag-aaral tayo, nalaman kong may "politically correct term" pala sa mga babae ng lipunan na ganito ang kalikasan ng hanap-buhay -- FSW or "female sex workers"...

"Ihi na nga lang ang pahinga, sinilipan pa!"

-- hay..buhay..

Leadership

Leaders have been engaged to a wide range of lexis, which encompasses varying definitions from different views. These sound explanations have attempted to instill in our minds the significance, the relevance, the essence and the truest soul of what they call “leadership”. Many scholars have already fostered the fitted words to describing a leader. They have structured a firm and satisfying descriptions about leaders. It envelopes the characterization and the projection real leaders should possess. They tried to designate leaders in the most sensical and dynamic approach, but it remains that defining leadership requires enormous thoughts and giving justice to such is a stiff mission to accomplish.

A leader is a person who is in a position to influence others to act and who has, as well, the moral, intellectual, and social skills required to take advantage of that position (Schlochty 1990). People who occupy positions of top authority in organizations have more opportunities to lead but unfortunately not all have the capacity to influence others. The only way these people can get others to act is through the exercise of their authority. Leadership potentials can be found in all levels of the organization down the bottom of the hierarchy (Duque 1999).

On the other hand, leadership is described as the process (act) of influencing the activities of an organized group in its efforts toward goal setting and goal achievement. Leadership to exist has certain factors to be considered. There must be a group (two or more persons); a common task (for goal-oriented activities) and differentiation of responsibilities (some of the members have different duties) (Stogdill 1950). Leadership has seldom been simply a function of personal charisma. Charisma can help one a mass power and authority, but charisma alone will not get the job done.

Quotables

"A life which is not dedicated to a great ideal is useless. It is a pebble lost in the field without forming part of an edifice". - J. Rizal

"When you write, you let go of yourself, that is why people who do not like to write are forbidding.
For if you refuse to write, you refuse to be freed." - Salin ko mula kay Prof. Joson ng HUM1

"The flame rolled its golden tongue to one side and a moth which this moment had singed fell into the oil... It had died, a martyr to its illusions". -J.Rizal

"The idea of class of all classes which are not members of themselves is incoherent. This class is logically impossible object. It exist in no possible world". - Philosopher

"Events and personnages appear in history at least twice. The first as tragedy, the second time as farce". - Karl Marx

Do People Have Satisfaction or Just a Non-Confining Attitude?

We observe.
We communicate.
We need words.
We require thinking.
We need to be substantiated enough to assert a certain claim.
We somehow struggle to be logical.
Everything has its purpose, I know.

Up to how much can we put an end to the seemingly interrelated parts of the entire world? Is it measurable? Not only in a vast view but rather on specific points of view? Is it really human nature?

But thinking only the nature of the man, makes you a follower of a rock-bottom explanation. Where do I end?

But continuous asking, makes us a better man; from this, we finally realize why everything is like that. They are inevitable and they carry the conviction of being "mysterious" and "full of secrets"... Kaya hindi nawawalan ng katwiran, hindi nawawalan ng dahilan dahil bawat isa ay kawing ng iba pa. Ang pinaghuhugutan ng lakas ng isang mahina ay ang sandigang matibay na dating mahina. Unti-unti, pinalalakas natin ang bawat isa sa hindi mapapansing galaw. Ito ang buhay, at hindi natatapos ang buhay sa pagsasagisag ng mga salita. Kase nga, ayaw nating nakakahon, gusto nating lumaya..Sa ngayon, naniniwala ako na pana-panahon lang 'yan! Kaya kapag dumating ang panahon mo... lumaya ka! Galingan mo! Paghusayan mo!
Antay ka lang. Kung para sa iyo. Sa iyo.
Malay mo, bukas na 'yon?

What is the Point?

A confusing wave of light made me in a sense of partial completion. That was the only time, I got a full sleep on Tuesdays; minding of my morning class the following morning. My train of thoughts have just reappeared in my control. The armies of my social life have just started to be activated. Highly dangerous for me to have a bad sleep, as is it is the only reason for a bad mood. I have just greeted my mother and flashed her with a beautiful smile. '',)
Day by day, I consider a word of thought from a book. And from these thoughts, I ponder. I get to use them in an efficient way. I get to mingle with the words, and give them a form of life.
Basically, what is paradoxical about what I wanted to write is that I somehow do not know how to put a period or a definite end on my essays. Making these schemes, earned me a particular character of being compulsive.
I am not sure, but my Philosophy professor is consistently pointing about a "OCD" (I am not certain if I got it right). And this quoted disorder will always be on my mind whenever I wanted to bring my college life back.